haven't been on here in a looooooong time...just need to kind of vent things about me actaully. don't bother reading, it's more or less just for me to get things out of my head and onto "paper"

People think they know more about me than they actually do. Who I am in school is not who I am in life. i'm 18. i want to go to Syracuse Univeristy really bad. I want to work for the Flyers when i get graduate from college. I have a sick obsession with hockey. I want to drive a Denali. I'm terrified of not getting into my choice school. I have a terrible temper when i get mad. I threw a lacrosse stick at my dad because of this anger. I'm not as nice as I appear. Piss me off, and you're fucking screwed. I know who's fake and who's not. I can't stand fake people. I can't stand girls who lead guys on for no reason. I can't stand girls who try too hard. I can't stand boys who go for these girls. I can't stand boys who get pussy whipped. I can't stand when people copy my life piece by piece. I hate deadlines. I know who I'm going to cut out of my life after i graduate from high school. I know who i will keep in touh with for the rest of my life. I hate when friendships turn south. I've had a few friendships turn south. I'm not a touchy feely person unless i trust you. I can get distant before i get close to you, so just stick with me. I've got a wicked sense of humor and a quick wit to back it up. Humor is what saves me. I honestly kid because I love. I don't reach out and try to strengthen relationships. I keep things inside until i have too much shit to deal with. I love to have a good time. I'm not as quiet in real life as I am in school. I do things that would probably make my parents cry. I drink. I've passed out and not remembered half the night. I've smoked cigarettes, but they aren't for me. I've smoked pot, but it's not for me. I sometimes just need that booty call. I try not to let awkward situations arise.   Watching needles freaks me out. I'm terrified of spiders. I was depressed for about 6 months after my brother moved out. I don't plan on living in Jersey. I didn't apply to one Jersey college. I live for the summer. The shore is one of my favorite places. I absolutely love working at Stewart's. I absolutely hate working as a life guard. I let people walk all over me. I'm too fucking nice. I can't stand obnoxious people. I can't stand people who talk just to hear themselves. I especially can't stand when these people talk really loud. I would never be able to tell all this to you in person. I don't like to talk too much about myself. People think they know more about me than they actually do.

 so...i said i;d post some pics and stories about Bruce and the 'Cuse...so i guess i'll do that now. Springsteen concert was africkinmazing, but i won't bore you kids with the details...cause none of you really like Brucey. that's alright though, cause i've now seen him twice, u2 twice, DMB twice, (unless you count Farm Aid where Dave played solo, then i've seen dave 3 times) Taking back sunday twice... i've seen a lot of people. and bruce is def in like...the top 5. sooo Syracuse. I love the college, and the campus, and the downtown, and the fact that my family is there. it's a spirited school, not so much as Penn state which i just visited Friday, but still more so than NYU. college apps are to be sent out by the end of this month and i still don't have like...a top list. ugh. i hate this. whatever. i only have like 3 more months of real school if that. AND i think i'm going to Italy over Spring break. and then Disney the following week. i think i'll skip Ireland with my mommy so i can go on the Greece/Italy trip, cause how often do you get to go to Europe with your friends? so yeah. enjoy some pics!

Bruce and Little Steven on the big screen!

The Center with all the house lights on during Born to Run...look at all the people!!!

Syracuse in a rare touchdown oppurtunity.

Right before the boys scored their last touchdown of the day

Big chilling with a football coach who actually wins

college searched out,
Caity K.

majjjjjjor updatage! cause i'm awful at finding time to write shit down and what not. let's get this weekend out of the way and then maybe talk about other joyful things in my life.

John and Jodi got married! the wedding was awwwwesome. truly a 'rock and roll' wedding as Jodi liked to put it. so here's the run down: Sunday afternoon, my mom, mom-mom and myself (my bro and dad stayed at my Uncle John's house the night before to help him 'get ready' on sunday) headed over to Philly to go to the hotel and get ready in Jodi's room and check in to our rooms and all that fun stuff. So finally all the bridesmaids and the bride and everyone else in the bridal party got ready and we all hopped into the limo and headed over to the mansion. we did a quick runthrough of walking down the aisle (we never had a rehearsal) and then went upstairs and chilled until it was time for the ceremony. ceremony went beautifully and for the recessional we walked out to Linus and Lucy, the Charlie Brown theme. It was awesome. So then the bridal party chilled upstairs for a bit had a toast, took some pics, enjoyed cocktail hour (because the ceremony and reception were all at Knowlton Mansion) then got introduced and then the dinner and dancing and all that until like 8. Then everyone cleared out...and went back to the hotel in Philly for the after party! oh my god. my family is nuts. everyone changed into like jeans and sweats and just celebrated. I left the suite around 3:15am and then me and my cousin stayed up til like 4 shootin' the shit in our room (who knows where Ryan was til like 6:30 in the morning when he finally came in) but during the 'after party' there was some crazy fun photoshoots, throwing little armymen parachutes off the balcony, getting in trouble with security twice, and just hanging with family. This morning, needless to say everyone was a bit groggy, for various reasons. but it was one of the best, if not THE best wedding i've ever been to. I loved being a part of the bridal party and getting some "new" family members (my uncle and Jodi have been dating for i think over 10 years, so they've been family really)

alright...that was a lot, so maybe i'll post some Springsteen photos and talk about that concert and my Syracuse visit latttta!

wiped out,
Caity K.

I'll be 18 tomorrow...let's get sentimental!

Top 3 things I'm grateful for having over the past 18 years:

1) First and foremost: an older brother. Thank god i didn't have a sister, because i believe i am a stronger person, physically and emotionally because of growing up with a boy 5 years older than me. without Ryan in my life i would most likely end up like one of those stuffy primadonna types who i can't stand. i love that fact that i can stand up for myself and that when i can't, I've got big bruddah right there over my shoulder making sure no one fucks with me.

2) my friends. truly the coolest bunch of people ever known. No 2 are alike and that's what makes me love them each. Some are crazy, some are down to earth, some are smart, some are ditzy, some are just plain fucking awesome. but it doesn't matter, because i love them all. even the people who i've only just met in high school, because they're some pretty rad MFers too. you all make my days go so much easier and make my life extra fun.

3)Super cool parents...mostly just a super chill mom. My dad is high strung and i guess i'm grateful for that because it makes me push myself so i don't have to deal with him. but my mom is the shit. she's pretty cool about letting me do whatever it is that makes me happy, and pretty easy on the questioning if i do something stupid or wrong. she's pretty much just like one of my best friends...only older. even if i can't talk to my fave chicks about something, she's there so i can vent and doesn't judge me one bit.

barely legal,
Caity K.

sooo...school is going on and i finally had my meeting with my guidance counselor about college and such. not too bad. just freaks me out that i have to write essays and get people to brag about me. seems like that's not usually a respectable trait. speaking of school...we got class ranks i'm 19/336. i'm pretty syked to be top 10%. but will NYU be impressed? whatever. only like... 5 more months of true school, and then senioritis will kick in.

so here's my goals for this year

-stay the same or move up in class rank...NO moving down
-get exempt from 3 finals...obvi not gonna be Physics, World cultures, or pre-calc...but not having to worry about 3 easy ones is just as good
-go to a Flyers game with friends...already in motion baby!
-get involved around school
-have all applications out before Christmas break
-have a big 1-8 party...and by that i mean probably ice skating haha
-get into at least 3 colleges, god that'd be super
-have fun at/after prom and have a good date...dates make or break the night people
-open myself up more to new people/experiences?
-HAVE FUN

so...this still feels weird to be a senior no?

oh college searching,
Caity K.